Happy 1st Birthday, Why-Why!

Time flies when you are having fun!
Today, my sweet sugar-man is 1!
Did you hear me? I said,
"ONE!"

I can't believe it's been one whole year. This is such a milestone for us. I remember this day a year ago very well. Riding in the car on the way to the hospital and telling Jacob he would be meeting his little brother in just a couple of hours. I remember waking up from surgery and saying "What was his apgar? Where is he?" Being 4 weeks early I knew he'd be fine but there was a part of me wondering if he'd ended up in the NICU like Jacob did. But God answered our prayers for both a miraculous (literally) pregnancy and birth given my personal medical circumstances. After asking those questions and getting the answer of "3, 9 and he's in the nursery" I was able to relax and concentrate on getting my pain under control. (c-section while asleep, so waking up to a fresh incision with NO epidural to help with the pain is terrible). I then remember Jay showing me pictures of Wyatt on the camera. Then a bit later when they saw I was awake and had my pain under control they brought him to me. What a perfect little face and tiny body. Just 5lbs and 15oz, he was so little. Our little peanut. So tiny. I couldnt believe how little he was, I thought he'd be at least a pound and a half bigger. But I remember being able to scoop him up with just 1 arm. And he'd make these sweet wimpering noises and we started calling him "puppy" that day. I"d been praying the whole pregnancy that it would be a "love at first sight" type thing and it definitely was. I couldnt get enough of him. For some reason I don't really bond or feel connected to my kids until after they're in my arms. When they're rolling around in my belly, I just feel like a science project with this alien growing inside me...LOL! I do much better bonding and loving once they are here.

He's been the most incredible blessing to all 3 of us. It is truly impossible to capture the love and devotion that I feel for this little child. Having my own children gives me some frame of reference to draw from in relating to the infinite amount of love that God has for me and for each of His creations. Wyatt has taught us so many things this year. The haute cuisine of soggy Zwieback toast, the joys of rolling in pillows, that a Tupperware is a hat, that a spotted ANYTHING is fascinating, that a tin of Newman's Own Organic mints provides hours of amusement, even more patience (Jacob started us 1st on that!) and how to love even more than 1 child which I didn't know how I was going to do. Just when we think our hearts can't hold any more love in them, they do. Our love for him just keeps growing. Every day literally brings us to our knees in thanks to God for his life and perfect health. We are, by far, Wyatt's biggest fans. Having children has taught me so much more about THe Lord the last 5.5 years. It is truly impossible to capture the love and devotion that we feel for Jacob and Wyatt. It actually gives me something to draw from in relating to the infinite amount of love that God has for me and for each of His creations. And I also think that every parent looks at their little baby and wishes the world for them. That all of their possibilities are realized, their limitless potential reached. So, I imagine that God looks at us the same way.

I read this recently and I portrays exactly how we feel for our children and how I believe God feels for us.
"We all have a unique purpose in the world. There is so much to achieve. The sky is literally our limit. With the love and guidance of our Father above, I believe we can reach it. I am always hearing how parents are supposed to be selfless, but we long for recognition by our children and are gratified when we receive it. God, too, desires our recognition of Him. He wants us to reach out to Him, to for us to feel that we can turn to Him for everything that we need. My friend once told me that since becoming a parent, she realizes that she will never be able to stop worrying for the rest of her life. I never stop feeling concern for my children, even when we are not physically together. God, too, is completely connected to His children, 24 hours a day/7 days a week. Just as the mother cries with her precious little baby when they are sick or uncomfortable, God is the ultimate Parent who feels the pain of His children and cries with them, a million times more. When both Jacob and Wyatt first started to grasp at objects I would be tempted to put it in their hand. But I needed to let him get it on his own, even if it was frustrating for him. God must also let us find our own way, giving us the room to make our own decisions and figure things out for ourselves, even if it means that we get frustrated sometimes. I also imagine Him hovering over us and watching us every step of the way, with His arms extended and waiting to catch us if we fall."

Tomorrow we're having a big birthday party for him! (it's actually for us...LOL!) At only one year of age, our baby boy won't understand all the fuss and excitement and why there are so many people in our home tomorrow. I know he's too young to appreciate it so we'll do that for him.....But it's going to be so much fun! Swimming, food and lots of friends and family. And when he is old enough, he'll enjoy seeing his first birthday party too via photos and video.

Here's some photos from 1 yr ago today and his 1 yr photos. I was too lazy to scan and then post all the photos so I just uploaded them from the studio's website...LOL! (hence the copywrighted "Z" on them.) My, my how he has grown.......

One year ago, TODAY:

Fast forward 1 year.....